真的非常难开口！

你说我父母不疼你，有时后我真的不懂要怎样跟你开口。手心是肉，手背也是肉。难道你觉得你说这样的话的时候，是真的对得起我父母亲吗？疼不一定要说出口，是否想过有一天我们也会当成为人父母呢？

你伤心的时候，你没看到他们伤心，就判定他们只是在你父母面前才会关心你。这样子是否对他们公平呢？难道他们要在你面前哭哭啼啼才能说是体谅和疼惜你？有没有想过他们为了不让我们更难过，他们得很坚强面对，就算负悲伤的心情还得变成我们的精神支柱？这样子我们才可以更快的平复与恢复呢？我相信我的父母亲何尝不是痛心与悲伤的。你这样说我的父母亲，是否有想过我的感受？

天下父母心，试问天下那有不疼爱自己孩子的父母？我想信我的父母亲只是想跟我们加升亲子关系，想更让我们感受被疼爱的感觉。只是多问两句，只是问我们吃什么东西，为何你要那么大的反应？我现在的心情只可以那么写。。。。。眼泪着眼，悲伤穿心哽喉咙。

There's a trolley lying around....

Looks like I really have to say something....and I wish the management of NTUC could view this as a feedback, although it's not their fault...really.

Today I was on my way back home when I saw two abandoned NTUC trolleys parked under one of the HDB apartment blocks. It must have been my third time having to push the abandoned trolleys back to the NTUC compound. I was thinking who in the hell could have done this inconsiderate things, as a matter of fact.

To be precise, I view Singaporeans as a spoilt brat(s) living under the care of their mother "SINGAPORE". No offence, actually...I am a Singaporean, and bred in Singapore throughout. Singaporeans are always talking about how gracious they are, compassionate...etc. Sounds like....by the word of it......but in truth, it doesn't seem like. Look, I am not trying to play down Singapore or Singaporeans' goodness, as a matter of fact. But honestly, I think we should take a good look at ourselves and think whether we have been really gracious?

It might not have been any Singaporeans fault, it could have been anyone...but come to think of it. Even if it is a maid or even anyone, should we teach them not to push the trolleys back to our residence area after shopping, and just leave it there? When we leave it down there, things happen....the kid(s) who thought that it will be a fun idea to push the trolley(s) and banged it to the walls? Or might be even a case of us leaving the trolleys abandoned, letting the trolley(s) to be go through the rain and the sun. The trolleys' became defective from damage, and most probably have to be dumped or degenerate as it could no longer be in use. NTUC would have trolleys missing, how could we do this when everything has been paved and arranged for our convenience? Cost of making the trolleys = money, and it could have cost the Earth resources to deplete even faster. Which in turn, we have already harmed the Earth so much. Talk about RECYCLING! No matter what you do to help recycle, you and me will still not have any effective output on recycling. It all still boils down to discipline.

I am thinking, whether Singaporeans or anyone as a matter of fact, consider this situation as per below-mentioned :

1) The trolleys will all be deployed with a handcuff-function like device,which requires a key from another trolley to un-cuff the user's hand(s). Forget that one dollar coin device which keeps the coin till we hooked it with another trolley key! People will just think of means and ways to get the one dollar coin back, prying using pliers or whatever they could think of.

I guess this is the only way I can think of, and it will work because people will not like the idea of being seen cuffed to something. Hence they will actually bother to return the trolleys. Like it or not, People! It is due to our lack of discipline that cause all these issues, hence to rectify the issues, we will have instill something to enhance our disciplines. You might not think it's fair to everyone, especially those who returned the trolleys after using it. But in this case, shouldn't we make it a point "ALL for One, One for ALL" . The Army has taught and instill this into our mindset, when one makes the mistakes, the whole platoon will get the consequences. I think be it civilians or whoever it is, this will be the alternative to resolve the issue once and for all, until we really can discipline ourselves and return the trolleys back to where it is supposed to be.

Singaporeans are viewed as "Protected Animals", "Spoilt Brats", "Mommy's Child" and many other names. Cause we are actually given privileges, but still we misuse it. Note that PRIVILEGE and ENTITLEMENT is not the same thing. Privilege can be stripped off/taken away, but entitlement is what we are given and in most cases, it cannot be taken away from us.

So before this handcuff device really takes into effect, maybe we should start doing something about it? Hope this serves as a wake-up call to all.

Money = Everything!!!

As usual, it have been ages since I last blogged. Today, 24th October 2009, will mark down a very important, or should I say, most important point of my life. Since young, I understand the point that we can buy a lot of things and do a lot of things with MONEY. But it is until now that I fully understand that MONEY can buy almost anything in this world, even human....especially their attitude.

Be it realistic that you may call me, but I would say you would most probably do the same if you were in my shoes, and the same circumstances happened to you.

Everything in this world is about MONEY, and MONEY plays a part in everything. Be it a COUNTRY, an organization, or even FAMILY. You can try to name something else, but do think very hard if MONEY plays a part in it. Government, secret societies, member clubs, hawker stalls, convenient stalls, friends......which of the above-mentioned does MONEY not have a part to play in? If a Government is unable to provide for its citizens, do you think there would be peace all within the COUNTRY? If a Secret Society gang does not have any MONEY, you think who will want to join them for no reason? Without MONEY, no people will be willing to be a follower under you. Member clubs, hawker stalls, convenient stalls......u name it....which does not have any linkage to MONEY?

Likewise, if you have MONEY, you will be revered as GOD. Whatever that you say, your wish is their command. I just found out that this is actually a fact. Recently I ran into some minor financial difficulties, which I have paid the price for a stupid mistake that I did. As per norm, I just had a coffee session with my family, and throughout our conversation....I came to understand that nowadays when I talk or explain...my family members will not hear me out. Things like "rubbish" and "you don't talk too much", will come up in our conversations currently. This situation will NEVER EVER HAPPEN when I GAVE MONEY to MY FAMILY MEMBERS....now that I do not have any money, I am being referred as a rubbish. Even when I invite them for coffee session just now, I was sarcastically asked "No money to drink coffee?".

Come to think of it, I should not be so upset by their remarks. Their remarks woke me up from my f**king idea. I thought I have a family who will support me when I am down and out, apparently not. Gone were the happy days of our being together, when I still can afford to treat them to eat turtle herbal soup which every meal we spend there, will be hundred plus dollars, and bring them out to places.

I can only laugh at own stupidity, because it is only now I realized everyone in this world cares about MONEY only. I remember a friend of mine used to say this "大佬，有钱是大佬， 没钱是没脑“。Now, this saying is to be use in Cantonese Language, which means "Boss, you are boss when you have money, you are nothing (brainless idiot) when you have no money". This very good friend of mine always reminds me that this world is not a wonderland, and we have to be realistic to survive. I'd always brush it off when he told me this, but thinking back now, he seems to make a point there.

I am not sad, just disappointed......but I think I will get over it soon. I've made up my mind, I will pick up from where I fall, and I will proceed further when I managed to pick myself up. I will not go down just like that, I will come back stronger than before. As for every other things now, it doesn't really matter to me already. MONEY will be my NUMBER 1 priority, and nothing comes before it in my heart. I am not trying to prove to them that I can pick myself up, I just know that I need to pick myself up fast and move on. I will save up and attend as much courses as possible, and get myself a good job that pays well. When I managed to pick myself up, I will have them to thank for teaching me such an important lesson of my life.

But I will not be a sucker anymore, precisely. It's only filial piety that I take care of them, but if I can't take care of them, who can blame me? I think it is better to ”宁可我负天下人， 也不愿天下人负我”。Who cares a hoot about you, if you have no money? The things I used to handle for my family, was way beyond what my age at the point of time, can handle. I still go through it, and help but I never thought that MONEY can affect us.

Nevertheless, I just know one thing.....MONEY = EVERYTHING. With MONEY, you can have love, friends, the things you want, people who will treat you like GOD....

Wedding Anniversary approaching

Looks like I can only update my blogs during my free-iest time.....hahaha! It has been again ages since I last blogged. I like the songs in the era when I was still studying years back then. How time flies, I must say! Now I have been working for a good 8 years or so, and living life in this world have made me realized that I will need to do bear with certain things or circumstances in life.

I am going to keep this post brief, for this time around. My wife's birthday and our wedding anniversary is approaching the corner, and I happened to get hold of this video, which I find it very meaningful. Here‘s to you, my lovely wife! I will think of something for our 3rd anniversary, meanwhile :-)

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It has been quite a while since I last blogged.....how time flies. Now I've been in Singapore for 1 month or so, I think. Today is a day for mixed emotions, I must say...a day of mixed feelings.

Switched on the tv about 1pm plus, saw the tv was playing one of my favorite movie.....that thing you do! Hmm....it's actually an old movie, but it always managed to strike back my memories of old....back when I am in my secondary school days. I am so mesmerized by the group, this movie and the songs...they were very popular back then. It was a retro moment for my time, every human on earth must have loved them like mad. I smiled, all my memories seem to come back into my life for a good ol' moment...how I wish it never end.

Went to a 6pm movie with my friends and wife. It was the 'Shinjiku Incident' or something like that, as far as I can remember. I would give it a rating about 4 out of 5 star. Nice story line, clear to relate on the happenings of the movie. The movie is still vividly living in my mind, till this moment. I would encourage those to go for the show if they want to get a rough idea on how realistic the world can be sometimes. Betrayal, money, hardships and even friends making use of one another....this show is quite capable of telling the audience on the realistic facts of the world. Halfway through the show, my eyes went teary when Jacky Chen cried as Daniel Wu lost his hand, Daniel Wu was telling him that he wants to have his hand back. It was a heart-pain moment for me....I seem to understand how they felt. I began to tell myself, the world is realistic....and so are the majority of people living in this world.

Back into this realistic world, my wife is actually quite worried that I won't be able to get a good job. To be honest, I have actually received a offer from a company, the offer was not up to my expectation. Adding to the fact, the boss pushed down my salary till a point, where I find it quite hard to accept. He told me a ship captain in Malaysia is earning about SGD3K plus...so he offered something like a fresh grad pay for me. You guys must be thinking, I must be mad not to take up the job.....I am lucky to get a job nowadays. I understand your perspective, but coming from where I am. A ship captain earns more than that, I know that as a matter of fact. If the boss had told me that he needs manpower, but would like me to lower down my salary range. I would have joined his company immediately. He told me that he likes people to be transparent, when working for him...as in he needs people to be honest. But from here, I've come to a conclusion that he, as a boss, is not honest with me....how in the world can I work for him? I have told him I will consider his offer and give him a reply,latest by tuesday.

My wife is always telling me to get a job fast, I understand her point. But when I asked her if I am working for another company, then another better offer comes along. I wish to jump...how can I go over immediately? She told me it's possible for an employee to tender within 2 days, as long as he/she is still under probation. From my part, I have never pressured her to get a high-paying job, or force her to get a job which she doesn't like. Recently, she got a job offer from her previous employer, but the terms offered were lower than what she is offered, which she is working for her current company. I am quite sad...

It has been more than a week's time since I reached Singapore. Was busy with making arrangement for job interviews and attending as per accordingly. Times are quite hard for Singapore at this moment, but I believe Singapore and the rest of the world wll pick up from the 2008/2009 economy crisis. I honestly don't know how badly affected the economy crisis is for the rest of the world, but I believe we will all be able to walk out of it. From what I see, although the economy crisis is affecting all parts of the world, people from all walks of life is still doing their purchase(s) for their daily necessities. It does prove a point, no matter what happened, life goes on.

I will be attending another few interviews before I can count my chances of getting the job. Honestly, I am not very confident that I will be employed, but I believe if I think I can, then I can. I always have this self-belief in me, because I know that if I myself do not have confidence in myself, who else will have confidence in me then.

I am watching the match between FULHAM VS MAN UTD. Currently into 52th minute, Fulham is leading 1-0 over Man Utd. I am a Man Utd fan for over a decade, I have confidence that Man Utd will at least get a draw out of this match. They need the points now in oder to ensure a smooth journey for their rush to be the 2008/09 FA Premier League Champions. Man Utd, come on...show me what you have got which persuaded me to be a Man Utd fan in the first place.

Got to go now.....need to focus on the match, and after that, get some beauty sleep as I need to wake up early tomorrow to have some exercise with my friends.

See Ya!

A penny for my thoughts

It has been quite some time since I last blogged. I have been thinking for quite some time now, about whether the problem just lies with me, or is it just plain human thinking?

I am finally back in Singapore for good, thank god. Throughout my life, I have come across some Singaporeans who think highly of themselves too. Gosh, the way they describe themselves, is quite senseless. They claimed their capabilities are far beyond others, but in reality their working attitude and so-called capabilities proved other-wise.

From here, it made me think....why would anyone want to show off when they are in fact, have nothing to boast of? Does it really matter anyway? I am sure everyone born into this world, is capable of something and will also have a certain use for the world as well. As I don't believe GOD will waste His time and effort to create something worthless for this world.

My fellow Singaporeans, I may sound crude with my words. But I honestly mean no harm to undermine anyone's abilities or even wish to speak ill of anyone. I am just stating from my personal point of view. I only mean a minority group here, not all Singaporean. Please forgive me, if I offended anyone in anyway.

I just hope everyone in this world will understand that everyone in this world is capable of something....as GOD created each and every one of us uniquely. You have your own standards and traits, while I have my own as well. I always believe in respecting others and their capabilites, makes people respect oneself in particular. It will always remain as a dream and goal to me, hopefully one day it will be an attainable task.

Thank GOD , and please bless all human too. Before you think I am a Christian...sorry about it, I am actually a Buddhist and I have a lot of respect for everyone and eveything. It's just that, I wish everyone can just follow their own role properly.

Be Humble, my friend, Be very HUMBLE!

1st March 2009 - Today another Malaysian relative of mine told me that I would very much fail in my life, as I do not heed any advice from anyone in the family. This again involves in my business. Again, this made me think if some Malaysians do very much think highly of themselves.

Dear Malaysians,with all due respect to all of you, I am not out to rage a war of words with anyone who viewed my blog posts all this while. Honestly speaking, I respect a person because of his/her behavior, attitude and most important, I believe in respecting a person because of self-respect. Self-respect is something I am still trying to learn and attain. Now we are talking about basic human respect here, we all live in a world where civilization have come into our lives, for most of us living in this world till this day, no matter which part of the world you live in.

This relative of mine, is someone who does have an accumulated fortune after years of slogging, and being a scrooge. He is a successful as a businessman, but he failed terribly as a PERSON. He is someone whom I think I couldn't have much repect for. His only words of wisdom 'a human should use his brains more often to think more diversely.' He basically doesn't have any respect for anyone, as he reckons if one who is wealthy and powerful, the world will be his/hers.

He once told me that I am childish as a young man, and I can't handle a business on my own. But in my view, I do honestly think he is the one who have a childish mind, who just live in his own small world of 'Alice in the wonderland'. His world is so small, I do sometimes think if he is wasting his life. His world involves in working hard, coming back home to watch comic, sleep. It's quite simple, but the way he live his life, is quite pathetic in a way. He arrogantly belives most of the people living in this world, has the brain of a pig. He behaves like a child most of the times, playing with teenages, being bullish with his words and 'Kung fu actions'. Honestly, he belives that the fact that he is able to fight, as something he is proud of. Come on, we are not babarians. Fighting is not an alternative or solution to most problems. Honestly, the fact I do sometimes think that I am able to fight, makes me think that I am childish. I am still trying to make a change in my life, and I sincerely hope that I can.

He loves telling people how stupid the people are, in front of others. But I would dare to say, I will still be able to lift my head up high. As least, I finished my secondary 4 'N' level academic studies. I am able to speak proper english, without much stutter. I am trying to improve my life, learning new things. I don't live in my own small world of 'wonderland'. Most of all, I respect people as a human. A human deserves to be respected, regardless of what is the age of the person. Even all the the living creatures in this world, needs to be respected. Don't you think so?

I hope one day, this relative will get a chance to read this blog post and think it over carefully-does he need to respect people? Having a fortune, does not necessarily mean that you are superior over others. You should respect your subordinates or even your employees. Not to dismissed them as pig-headed or some trash. Even a trash can be useful......think plastic recycling. You never know when you are going to meet your downfall, everyone has his/her fair share of ups & downs. Be humble, my friend, be very HUMBLE!

Are you trying to be Humourous or WHAT?!

24th February 2009 marks the day which I made a point to mark it down in my life, as a Singaporean living nearly a year in Malaysia. This will also be the day which I shall make it a point, to always be humble and know oneself limit's.

Living in Malaysia for nearly a year, has certainly made me grown up. I've seen how some Malaysians live through their life and react through certain circumstances. The stories I have heard, the people whom I have met & got to known, the things which happened throughout this one year. It sometimes does bring out a sense of humor (to me, at the very least). I am not very sure how to relate entirely in my blog, but I do hope anyone reading my blog will understand what I am trying to put across here.

Today, I had a small conversation with a relative, which I think honestly, if he is telling this story to another man in Singapore, he will be laughed at. He told me in person, that I am stupid, in terms of business dealing. As he happened to know I ordered IT peripherals, which doesn't even cost RM 350.00 in cost, for a customer. He insisted that I should collect at least a RM 100.00 deposit from the customer. I explained that I personally know the customer as a friend, and she is actually out-stationed today, so it is not very possible for her to pay me a deposit today. Somehow this relative insisted that business isn't meant to be done this way, and also told me that collecting a deposit will ensure the customer to "remember" their order. He proceed on to tell me how good is he at business, which I think otherwise. He personally think "$$" as the main factor in business, other than that, is no-talk. I do agree that "$$" is the main factor, but I personally think professional service standard and human-relationships do have an effect on business too. I am pretty sure if your service standard sucks to the core, and you don't respect others......no matter how good you are, your business will be affected. Throughout this entire conversation, he kept telling me I need to improve on my methods of dealing with people and the way I handle my business.

Mind you, this relative of mine, isn't a rich man by the way. Neither is he a very successful businessman in a trade that ever existed in this world. He is just a man in his thirties, selling mobile phones in the day and selling shoes in the night. It evolves the same cycle everyday non-stop, as he have to slog like hell to make ends meet.

So when he's telling me, how good is he.....my mind is like "I am not successful,yeah......then you are?" I can only smile wryly and tell him nicely that I am confident that this customer will pay in full amount. He retorted, what if my customer doesn't want to honor the purchase of the IT peripheral, in the end? I answered back "I still have another customer waiting in line." In my mind, "what ifs" doesn't exist in my vocab world.....because "what if I am a millionaire"? The world can never be fill with "what if", it isn't realistic at all.

Upon this moment, I know that this relative business can never expand as he will never improve. His service standard sucks as I have followed him to sell shoes before, he doesn't even bother to ask any of the customers if they would like to buy shoes, or even take a look. When I asked him why he never asked, his reply was "why bother, if they want to buy, they will come and take a look themselves."

'Sigh'.......I wonder how....I wonder why........