Please, just a while more, bear with me.....

I know you feel neglected these days, without my company, without being able to dine with me twice a week for this week. I am equally upset with myself as well, I know you will also be upset with me for going out late at night and not accompanying you when you come back home.

I don't feel good if I work late, and I don't want you to feel you are not important. You are important to me, and that's what I know as a matter of fact. I understand how you feel, you might be thinking having me as a husband, is as good as having none. Maybe you just hate to face the four walls at home, and not having me around to talk to you, not having me by you.r side.

The reason why I am working so hard, is just for one reason....and the reason is you. I have to sacrifice my time with you for now, to focus my job, the server upgrades, the projects....because I know that if I put in effort now to complete the project, I will be able to have more family time in future. I believe once the things gets more or less settled down, the projects goes smoothly, and the server upgraded, I can get to spend family time with you. Bear with me, just a few months more, I promise I will show you the results, I am trying my very best already. I am also feeling terrible inside, please have faith in me, in our relationship.

Seeing you being happy is one of my goals in life, and I really want to make it happen. Seeing you being soundly asleep, I felt I have not been a good husband. I really feel wretched, you know? How I wish I can see you smile, everyday everytime.....during our meals together....looking at you being happy just makes myself believe all the hardships I endured is worthwhile. I still remember when you are happy, you will also look so happy when you cook. I really hope the day will come soon, the day I really can spend time with you happily. I miss the times you looked when you are cooking our meals, I missed the times when you looked so happy when we are together....